blooop

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 07:11:09 GMT

if you all knew i was going to die tomorrow, what would you do? what would you say to me? what would you wish you could have done differently?

this is a serious question.
it's been on my mind a lot lately.
i have always felt like i wasn't going to live long.
i don't know why.
i could never picture myself having a wife and kids, growing old, retiring.
none of it.
and for some reason lately, i have felt like i need to take care of everything that has been going wrong in my life.
that's why i have always forgiven everyone for everything, i feel like i don't have the time to hold a grudge, i feel like i need to live as much as i can while i'm still alive.

so answer those questions or just say something.
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Mon, 17 Jul 2006 23:07:08 GMT

Tell me your honest opinion of me.
Honest thoughts.
Good or bad.
Bad or good.
I don't care.

Post anonymously.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 03:54:46 GMT

Love/ Relationship survey

This survey is gonna probably make you uncomfortable, but if you do it...answer honestly!!!

Then repost so others can do it. It is actually worthwhile, one all about love, relationships, and all things like that, that most people wont ask.

-Longest relationship: around 8 months

-Shortest relationship: 3 weeks

-How many people have you broken up with? two

-How many times have you truly been in love? 1

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 3, but i only truly loved one

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? i thought about it.

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? i guess?

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? yes.

-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend? haha, a lot.

-Are you happier single or in a relationship? idk

-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend? yeah.

-Have you ever been cheated on? yes.

-What is your favorite thing about the opposite sex? when they lay their head on my chest and smile and close their eyes

-What is the best part of being in a relationship? being happy, cuddling

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship? arguing, disagreements, jealousy, and stuff

-Worst relationship? all of em?

-Have you ever had your heart broken? yes

-Have you ever broken someone's heart? i doubt it

-Do you talk to any of your exes? most.

-What is the most mushy or romantic thing you have done? nothing really.

-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you? nope

-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend? someone who is happy with me and understanding and caring.

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? i'm alright, i've had a lot of bad past relationships and i don't expect that much out of anyone.

-Have you dated people who were not good to you? most of them.

-Have you been in an abusive relationship? mentally and emotionally.

-Have you ever had sex with someone just so that they would stay with you? no, that would probably make them leave, if anything

-Have you ever had sexual fantasies about one of your exes? no.

-Ever dated someone older? all of them

-Younger? no

-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common? they either cheated on me and didn't appreciate me or they were weird and obsessed with me, with the exclusion of jessica, she was the most normal.

-Have you ever done anything sexual in front of your parents? no.

-In the movies? kissed?

-Do you regret anything that you have done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? i guess, i don't know.

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend? yeah, it's why i don't even try to sleep anymore.

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yeah, but it gets old.

-Believe in love at first sight? no way

-Ever been given a promise ring? no.

-Do you want to get married? i don't know.

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes? you've all had an impact on me in one way or another

-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? yeah

-Do you believe in true love? i guess

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? pretty much

-Do you think that you will find the love of your life? who knows?

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 04:37:24 GMT

i can't even escape this in my sleep.

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sad kisses

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 23:52:29 GMT

today was good.
sad, very sad, but good.
i don't know which is a worse feeling, having her mad at me or knowing she misses me.
oh well, i know we can't date anymore, i just wanted one more day.
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my grounding rules:

i am allowed to have people over, talk on the phone, use the computer and play guitar until summer school, i'm trying to let them let me go to band practice but idk if i can convince them to let me.

during summer school: i am completely grounded until i pass, no anytihng, no people coming over, no phone and no guitar.

after summer school(if i pass): i can do anything i want.

i couldn't hear a word you said. i couldn't hear at all. you talked until your tongue fell out. and then you talked some more. i knew if i turned... i knew if i turned, i'd turn away from you. i couldn't look back. i couldn't look back. tell yourself we'll start again. tell yourself it's not the end. tell yourself, it couldn't happen... not this way. not too late. not too late. i couldn't hear a word you said. i couldn't hear at all. you talked until your tongue fell out. and then you talked some more. i knew if i turned... i knew if i turned, i'd turn away from you. i couldn't look back. i couldn't look back. tell yourself we'll start again. tell yourself it's not the end. tell yourself, it couldn't happen... not this way. not too late. not too late. not too late.

not too late.

Sun, 21 May 2006 12:58:38 GMT

today is my birthdayyy

yay

i know i know i know

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 17:02:36 GMT